Thursday, February 27, 2003
Since my last entry; things have been a mixture of happiness and chaos...
To start with, I'm in Manchester after having my time wasted by going for a job interview only to be told that the job had already been filled so because of that I'm really pissed off and when I phoned the bank about delaying my loan payments by a fortnight, the stupid idiot at the other end of the phone told me that I couldn't do that and supposedly I'm 2 months in arrears so now I have to borrow some extra money from my mother and what's the odds she's going to rant and rave at me...
I'm sorry if I sound really angry but I swear I never get any breaks in life and that I truly get the short end of the stick in everything...
All I want now is to be a regular ordinary guy with a 9-5 job that I enjoy and pays reasonably well, be admired and respected by my peers, be able to go on 1 or 2 holidays and most of all, get back with Ruby if possible or if not, find someone who loves me for who I am rather than lie and cheat on me like the first 2 relationships...
I know how Justin Timberlake feels as he was cheated on in all his relationships including the one with Britney Spears...
Not a lot of people realise that when a breakup happens, it hurts guys just as much as girls when a girl cheats on them...
I truly hate being unhappy as there are times as I've mentioned when I just break down and cry my eyes out at the injustice of the world and at life in general...
I'm still determined as always to visit Singapore as soon as I can but how can I when nobody will give me a chance at a job because of various reasons....
As always, there are days when I feel so low and depressed that I wonder what life would be like if I just ended it all but then I realise that it would probably be a cold one...And I'd hurt those that truly care for me and I guess in a way; Ruby as well and I wouldn't want that on her conscience...
That's what I love about my Blog, I can get my feelings out and I'm sorry if I hurt anyone's feelings but I truly do feel that I never seem to know happiness or if I do, it's always cruelly taken away from me for one reason or another...
Meanwhile, as for Valentine's Day, I never got any cards altho I sent some email ones to Ruby and a couple of female friends to cheer them up...
I also spoke to Ruby and she said she was keeping well altho she was a bit upset and angry over something which in turn made me think about how when we first got together, she was always so gentle and loving and now she always seems to be under a lot of pressure...It's times like these where I want to give her a hug and tell her that I'll always be there for her and that I won't pressurise her over anything...
When it comes to seeing couples together, I managed to get over it altho there are times when I still wish I was in a relationship...I know it's corny but unless you know what love truly is then you have not truly experienced life...
Movies-wise, I still have to see "The Ring" and "Maid in Manhattan" is coming out next week with previews at the weekend but in the meanwhile, I saw "Daredevil" with Ben Affleck, Colin Farrell and Michael Clarke Duncan and I thought that this has to be the best movie of the year so far as everything about it was good especially the way "Bullseye" [the assassin played by Colin Farrell] acted way over the top and used some very interesting items to kill people...Also I enjoyed the tender scenes between Matt Murdock aka "Daredevil" and "Elektra" played by Jennifer Garner in that you could tell that they truly loved each other yet it was destined to end in tragedy...
I also saw "Two Weeks Notice" with Hugh Grant and Sandra Bullock and that's another movie I truly liked as I'm a big fan of Hugh Grant's and I thought this was one of his better movies; in particular the scenes where he always seemed to piss off Sandra Bullock's character over the littlest thing but in the end his character becomes a better person even tho he sacrifices everything to be with the one woman he truly loves...
I guess I'm like Hugh's character in that movie in that I'd sacrifice anything to be with the girl/woman of my dreams...
I admit I make mistakes and I'm not perfect, I would always try my best to make a girl happy in a relationship but as you know, I truly made a hash of things with my last one and I truly only have myself to blame...I could have been a selfish so and so and treated Ruby like dirt but I could have never done that because it's not in my nature to do so and I never could have done it to her...
On another note, I'm catching up on some book reading, trying to download the 1st episode of "BakuRyuu Sentai Abaranger" without success and I'm playing some GameBoy Advance Game ROM's at the moment including Legend of Zelda and Yu-Gi-Oh:The Eternal Duelist Soul...I also have to sort out my computer sometime and worry about my birthday which is on the 13th of March so if you want to send me a e-card, address it to borgmanjayce@hotmail.com or runejayce@hotmail.com.
As for jobs, I'm not going to give up trying to find one as I don't care how long it takes, as long as I get one...and as for my case with my former employer and recruitment agency, I'm going to visit my solicitor next week to ask him to write a VERY strongly worded letter to the companies involved telling them that if they don't get back in touch with him then I'll definitely take them to court, no holds barred as I'm going to prove to them that they picked on the wrong person when they risked my health! *Is truly angry at injustice...*
Anyway, that's all I have to say about my life for now but I'll post again soon so for now, take care, be well and remember that life doesn't always have to be full of lemons...
[3:37 PM]
*Name: Jason
*Birthdate: March 13th
*College: Liverpool Community College [Doing iPRO Level 2 Certificate for IT Practitioners (ICT Systems Support)
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*Email: rune.jayce@gmail.com
Favourites
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*Tokusatsu [Japanese Superheroes]
*Densha Otoko [Japanese Drama]
*Videogames; especially RPG's and Fighting Games
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*Oasis [As in the band]
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